To Be Only Yours...I Pray....

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my handsand pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now you're my only hope

~Only Hope~ Mandy Moore

The semi-famous words of Mandy Moore, sung in the definitely-famous 2002 movie A Walk to Remember. The movie is a classic love story of teenage love turning out to be the love of their lives. The song above was sung during a play which starred the stars of the movie, Shane West and Mandy Moore. The song was intentionally to describe the play's characters' relationship, but turned out to be the most memorable love song--well, at least in my opinion. The basic storyline is badboy Landon Carter, played by Shane West, meets and immediately falls in love with the good-girl Jamie Sullivan, played by Mandy Moore. I can't describe really how much I love this movie, because to me, it portrays the realities of true love. Yes, I know it's just a movie but...they captured it perfectly.

Boy Meets Girl.

Boy Falls In Love with Girl.

Girl Can't Resist Boy No Matter How Hard She Tries.

Boy and Girl Get Married.

The thing that I love best about this movie is one simple fact. Jamie is the preacher's daughter and wants the whole fluffy white wedding dress thing. Landon was the trouble-maker badguy, who has quite frankly broken that rule a couple of times. But he gives it all up for Jamie. They fall in love, and he respects her in everyway. He doesn't want anything from her except to make her happy. It doesn't matter how; he just wants her happy. He never pushes her for anything, but fights for her love, because he loves her just as much if not more. Even through hard times, Landon stays with her, and even says at the end of the movie that Jamie saved his life. I think what's so amazing is that they are irrevoccably in love. And another thing that's so astonishing is that people write it off as fictional--that could never happen.

And that's where people are wrong. I believe that it happens everyday. It's not just ficitonal, there is that strong love, that..innocent love. I know it is, because I believe I've found it myself. It's just the patience thing that people don't get, so they just settle. Now, I'm not saying to wait around so long that you die gray and alone, though nothing's wrong with that if you so choose. What I'm saying is you can't expect the first couple of guys that happen to come into your life to be absolutely amazing and perfect for you in everyway. If you do happen to find that person so soon, like I did, consider yourself extremely lucky.

For you others, rent A Walk to Remember, have a good cry, set a decent standard and be patient. It'll all work out.

xo

Kayy

I love you James

Happy Valentines

Okay, so before I get too far ahead of myself, I wish to apologize for the previous post. It was kind of uncalled for. Me and that certain somebody that it was kind of about have talked things over and we is good to go. I do wish to apologize though for it.Now, on to today's post.

It's Valentine's Day yet again, a day to stuff your face with chocolates and cuddle with a teddy bear that significant other got you. Valentine's Daym, whether or not it was it's intial purpose, has become "couples' day" where you get presents from your boyfriend/girlfriend/husnad/wife. But as my day as gone on, I guess it's more than that. It could kind of be called "loved ones appreciation day" as I got presents from my grandparents, my aunt, and my parents as well as from my boyfriend. Though I must admit his white roses are the best, end of story. But my puppydog my dad got me, and the bear my aunt got me, and the chocolates and cupcakes from my grandparents are all pretty cool too. My point is, through the years, it's become more than just "couples day" and more like "loved ones appreciation day." Many people say that Valentine's Day was invented by the industries, and it was. But not just for boyfriends/girlfriends, husbands/wives. It was made for them, and family, and friends. I mean who doesn't love finding Dora the Explorer Valentine's Day cards stuffed in your locker? Or a new stuffed animal from your parents, even if you are fifteen and regard it as kiddie-things. Either way, Valentine's Day has it's own special meaning, to each person in their own way.
I think that's about it, all there really is to say ont he subject.

Happy Valentine's Day
~Kayy

Hypocrite: The Ones in the World I Love to Hate

So tonight, my loves, we have a little rant to go through. It's baked in my mind all day. I know I have some ethics posts I need to get around to, not to mention the countless poetry and short story ideas to throw at you guys but I really would like to use this time for my endless, pointless rant because I know the person it's aimed at will only get all mad over it and throw my recent irresponsiblity back in my face. But I don't care at this point. Let her.

You want to know what I really really can't stand? By the title you've probably already guessed it but I'll be Captain Obvious for a short while and just throw it out there: hypocrites. I hate it. I mean really, you'll rant on me and tell me how "retarded" I am for my choice of a boyfriend, who thank you very much I have known since seventh grade, and then the first sleezball who happens to say a few nice things to you and is socially acceptable for you to date, you automatically want to make out with him nonstop. And I'm sorry to say this but really, you'll be sick of him in two weeks and find some flimsy excuse to dump him.
But don't worry, you're not the only flawed one. He sits in class all day talking about how he's going to use you to get what he wants out of this whole thing. Maybe I'm being too judgemental of him, but who really knows? After allt his guy has been here for what, a week? Less?
Yet already you trust him over a supposed best friend you've known from the start.

And it really wouldn't bother me as muchif you weren't such a hypocrite. I mean really. I get together with my boyfriend and all I hear from you is how "he's not good for you" "you can do better" and all this other stuff that really you don't have any place to say. In the past year that I have been with my boyfriend you always say you only "tolerate" him yet you don't actually put forth an effort to be nice to him and get to know him. It's really judgemental of you, and I guess considering I called your new hookup of the week a sleezball, that makes me a bit of a hypocrite but what can I say, in the past week the guy's been to our school he's proven that to just about everyone. The point is, You have constantly "warned me of the horrors" that my relationship has and is going to bring. Yet the second I try to warn you that this new guy of yours is broadcasting to all the class of how he's getting some from you, you tell me you can take care of yourself and you don't need me to warn you about things I don't know about.
Hmm. So let us think about it. When you did the same to me: I knew the guy for two years, I said the same thing, and he wasn't bragging or wanting to get anything from me. And yet you've known the guy less than a week and he's telling everyone he can.

I still want to give the guy a chance, because yes he's been here a week, so I'll try to not be as judgemental, I just want you to realize that..that sometimes before you say something, try to be in their shoes. I mean seriously this is a reversal of a year ago. It really is.

It's horrible to say, but I honestly hope he breaks your heart.
Maybe you'll take your so-called friends more seriously.

xo
Kayy