Do you remember that friend?
I remember mine.
That one year, when she had left, I thought I'd die, I had no friends with her gone. I completely missed out on that part of school, whether in elementary or middle, or whenever you were supposed to learn it. I missed out on learning how to make friends.
Enemies, sure, but we had made those enemies together.
And with her at a new school, I was left all alone.
It took me a whole semester to find a friend, but then, to me they were just pawns in a game.
To be honest, I didn't have friends and didn't want them.
That one friend, the one friend I found that semester turned out to get me in trouble, and though I'm "friends" with her today, she's just a pawn.
That first friend, my only true middle school friend, I longed for her to be back. It's not like some creepy stalkerish-lesbian-love. I just wanted my friend back.
I'd get home, and call her first. Ask how her day was. All that jazz.
Even in highschool, that first semester, I continued making lists to tell her about my day. So in a way it was like she was there. Like I still had my good middle school friend.
So I wasn't alone.
But, no matter what I did, she gained other friends. Which is good for her, shes a social butterfly now.
And I'm that awkward middle school friend.
Our personalities got more diverse, and soon there was nothing but those memories to keep us together.
Eventually, we grew apart.
I still consider her my best friend.
I keep all of our pictures, to help remind me how much she was there for me, and how much I was there for her.
But it's all memories now..
She didn't keep any of her pictures.
I'm wiped clean from her MySpace.
Out of her life.
We still talk occasionally..but we're not as close.
It sucks.
I lost a very good friend.
xo
Kayy
"There is a luxury in self-reproach. When we blame ourselves, we feel that no one else has a right to blame us. It is the confession, not the priest, that gives us absolution."
The Picture of Dorian Gray
Oscar Wilde
2 comments:
Awwwh, honey. *hugs*
Friends are overrated, anyways
=p
Nearly everyone moves on from their middle school friends, its a fact of life. In middle school, you have no idea who or what you are and you just cling to people kind of like you so you won't have to face it alone. And when you get older, things change and you realize that you're not the same person you were in middle school. Its only natural for us to grow up and grow apart from people that used to mean the world to us. It just happens. It sucks, but it just happens.
Oh, and I hope I'm not one of the pawns. =p
<3Helen
If you look underneath my nightstand and in that colorful photo album, there lies the pictures of our relationships.
For they are too sacred to place on MySpace for petty fools to look at and judge.
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